6 years.
It’s been 6 years since I touched your skin or gazed upon your face. A face I’ve known from birth and one I can no longer see in real time.
It’s been 6 years since you left, and while I can’t blame you for being ready to reside in your true heavenly home, sometimes I’m simply that little girl who misses her dad and I wish you were here with me.
I’m being selfish, I know, but did you really have to go?
Could you have fought a little harder?
Did I do all I could?
Did I spend enough time with you or pray enough prayers?
Didn’t you want to walk me down that aisle or hold your grandbabies for the first time?
Oh daddy, I know you held on for as long as you could, but it wasn’t long enough!
You did your best, I know you did, and my prayers were answered. You accepted Christ as Lord and Savior weeks before you died, and as you left your earthly body you attained a full and complete healing from the cancer that ate away at your flesh.
I know that you are rejoicing at the Father’s throne and that we’ll meet again, but sometimes I get mad.
I get angry that I can’t pick up the phone and call you, because you were always the one who understood. I can’t believe I don’t have a recording of your laugh or your voice, and I’m angry you didn’t think of that before you were gone.
Why didn’t I think of that?
I’m mad that I can’t go Christmas shopping with you and I’m outraged that I can’t give you a hug. Every year around this time it hits me in such a different way but this, I believe, is overdue.
It hurts but I have to confess…I’m angry that you left me.
I’m furious, really, but it’s only because I love you so much and miss you like crazy. I’m angry because I want you back, but the truth is, you are exactly where you need to be, and I will get there one day too.
For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain. Philippians 1:21 (ESV)
I miss you daddy, today and always, and I love you so much.
EMBRACE HIS GRACE,
💜Patricia
Beautiful tribute. May God bless your memories.
❤️
Lovely tribute!
Sending hugs!
I so relate even thirty-two years later!
Thank you Di.
I’m angry, too! Both of my best friends are gone, but I’m happy to know that they’re together. Love! Love! Love you!
Love YOU!!!! ❤️
Wow! Weeks before? That truly is AMAZING! I am so sorry. I hate that he was taken away from you
Thank you sweet friend. ❤❤
This is beautiful and brave, thank you dear ❤️
Thank you Kelsey. I appreciate you so much!
I’m sorry friend. He looks like he was the sweetest man! Such tender eyes. Praise God that you know where he is today!!
Yes, amen! I thank God every day for His salvation.
Such a tear jerker! Now I’m crying! God bless you!
Aww. Thank you so much Lisa.
Blessings to you!
Patricia
Tears. Thank you for being so real and raw about this. I know they say it gets easier with time, but I know the wound is still just as raw. Thinking of you today.
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers Suzanne. I appreciate it.
Patty
So many tears. Sending you all the hugs! xo
Hugs received! Thank you Nicole. <3