Where is your head at today? Did you wake up feeling refreshed and thankful, or was your heart bogged down by critical thoughts before your feet even hit the floor? We all wake up on the wrong side of the bed sometimes, but it’s up to us to determine whether or not we stay in that gloomy place. We are what we think (Proverbs 23:7) and our mindset establishes the tone for the way we operate.
Lately I’ve been meditating on the importance of sharing our testimonies. In my own life I’ve been confronted by the fear of judgment and rejection if people were to know my whole story, the nitty gritty details, and not just the carefully selected excerpts I choose to display. Would they still like and respect me? Would they still want to be my friend? Would the woman I once was change their perception of the woman I am now? I can’t predict the answer to any of these questions, but I can say, with confidence, that I’m no longer that person and it’s all because of my relationship with Jesus.
For the last few days I’ve been keeping up with the news surrounding Hurricane Patricia. As the strongest land falling pacific hurricane on record, the attention surrounding its movement has been of both awe and wonder, as well as apprehension and fear. As I prayed for safety and protection of the people predicted to be in its path, I was struck with another thought. This hurricane, which also happens to be my namesake, has been described as ‘powerful’, ‘unstoppable’, and ‘a force to be reckoned with’. It stopped me in my tracks as I asked myself if I could be described as such a mighty force for Jesus.
I’ve recently had some amazing fellowship with some very good friends. I shared my heart with them, and they shared their heart with me. It blesses me because I understand the value of spending quality time with people I admire, love and respect, and in order to maintain such companionship, I choose to invest my time and energy to maintain a strong connection.
I know you’ve been struggling lately. Struggling with feelings of inadequacy and feeling invisible. I know that sometimes you feel like you’re just passing through this life and blending in with the crowd; unnoticed and perhaps unloved. There are moments when you feel like your hurts, wants, needs and desires are trivial and unimportant. You think no one cares. You feel like you don’t matter. Oh sweet daughter, this couldn’t be further from the truth! My heart breaks for your sadness and I weep at the thought of you ever feeling forgotten and alone. Please, my precious child, don’t believe the lies.