I will never forget the exact moment when the process started. I was back-to-school shopping with my girls, looking for clothes for my up and coming kindergartner. In the midst of this milestone of an occasion, my heart started beating rapidly and I could no longer think straight. One quick trip to the bathroom and I was gripped with fear.
We finished shopping and made it out of the store in record timing. Once we were home I immediately locked myself in the bathroom and began to cry. That night was the worst. The cries turned into deep weeping and agonizing pain, as I begged and pleaded for an alternative explanation before the Lord. I knew that I had just experienced loss in January, but 5 years ago I had a similar scare and that child was heading to school in a matter of days.
The praise and worship music blasted in our bedroom and the tears continued to pour out of my eyes. I tried to allow my faith to be bigger than my fear. I was determined to walk by faith and not by sight even though it seemed an impossible task as the bleeding continued.
Over and over I said these words:
I declare that my baby is fine. I declare that my baby is fine. I declare that my baby is fine.
In Jesus’ Name.
I held onto hope as much as I possibly could. I wavered and crumbled and picked myself up time and time again. Those 5 days were the longest. Finally it stopped. I felt a sense of relief but it didn’t last. So what did this mean? I needed confirmation.
Two negative tests and an ultrasound later, I think I heard my heart actually breaking.
It happened again. I miscarried again. And I’m so angry about it.
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If you know me in person this won’t come as a surprise to you, but cooking is not my thing.
Ok, ok. Now everyone in the “Amen” corner please settle down. LOL.
In all seriousness, I don’t enjoy cooking. I don’t even enjoy grocery shopping. In fact, I despise it. And while my husband will graciously eat all of my meals (let’s face it, the man has to eat something), there are only a handful of dishes that I feel I really knock out of the park.
In addition to my general disdain for the whole process, there’s this thing called time that no one ever has enough of. Evenings are especially challenging with my husband’s work schedule, church activities, getting the girls to bed on time (HA!), etc, but we have to eat!
We don’t want to fall in to the quick but unhealthy fast food routine, so we decided to give Dinner Thyme a try!
This post is sponsored by IncrediBundles. As always, the thoughts and opinions shared here are 100% honest & my own!
Mother’s Day is right around the corner! Is it just me or have all the holidays snuck up on us this year?
Either way it goes, I’m very excited to celebrate this special day, not just for myself but for all the wonderful mothers I know!
I am truly blessed to have THE BEST mother in the WORLD, and I am surrounded by so many beautiful and encouraging maternal figures in my life. I am also rejoicing with the mama’s to be, and am excited for anyone who may be celebrating this special occasion for the first time!
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