What does motherhood mean to me?
What it means to me is much different than what I thought it would mean when I got married 6 years ago.
You meet the love of your life, you get married and then you have kids, right?
For 1 in 8 couples, it doesn’t work that way.
You see, motherhood is different for me because, right now, I am not yet a mom.
Instead I am a mom in the making.
5 years ago doctors told us we would never have kids. 5 years ago we decided to put all of our hope, trust and faith in God. 5 years ago we decided to stand on the Word of God and trust that He would expand the household of our family.
It’s been 5 years of not 1 positive pregnancy test, but 5 years of contending, believing, declaring, praying and trusting that God would make my husband and I parents.
Motherhood is something I have dreamed of since a little girl. But for now, since it hasn’t happened yet, it’s something I get to celebrate with others as I wait for it for myself.
Motherhood is something I think about all the time.
As I continue to take steps of faith and buy baby clothes, get the nursery ready and pray over our babies who haven’t even been conceived, it’s so much more to to me than a title.
Motherhood is a promise.
God has spoken to us we would have kids, but that doesn’t mean it happens so easy.
Motherhood is a journey.
It’s believing and contending even though nothing in our situation has changed.
Motherhood is a gift.
Never, ever, would I have known how much of a gift and a blessing it is had I become a mother when I wanted.
Motherhood looks different for everyone, but for so many women all across the globe, motherhood is something that is still just a dream. It’s something that 1 in 8 people, like myself, have to wait a very long time for. Some do shots every day, fly across country to see doctors, spend tens of thousands of dollars, yet are still overwhelmed with a lot of pain, heartache and loss.
Motherhood for me isn’t becoming a mom when I had wanted or desired, but it’s still choosing to surrender my plans to the Lord while remaining steadfast in pursuing him. It’s believing that nothing is impossible with God and that in God’s perfect timing I will become a mom if I don’t give up in waiting.
I love Caroline, she is amazing and her strength is so inspiring!
She is such an inspiration!!!
Blessings,
Patricia
This spoke to my heart today as we’ve been trying to conceive for over a year (with one miscarriage). I know it’s meant for us and I’m working on my patience but some days are hard! Thank you Caroline for your words about motherhood!
I’m so sorry for your loss. Caroline is truly inspiring and I’ll be praying for you as your journey continues!
Blessings,
Patricia
This was so beautifully said! I really like what she said about motherhood looking different for everyone, I totally agree with that. I love Caroline and her book, such a great daily devotional!
Yes, it’s so different and important to remember that we all have different perspectives!
Blessings,
Patricia
This is beautiful! I love Caroline!
She’s wonderful!! I love her heart!
Blessings,
Patricia
So beautifully written. You have a beautiful perspective and love how you share your faith with others. Many blessings your way.
She has such a beautiful heart and has encouraged many!! Thanks for reading Dawn!
Blessings,
Patricia
What a beautiful post and a courageous and faithful heart. Thank you for sharing Caroline’s story <3
She is truly a blessing to so many for sharing her heart!
Thank you for reading!
Patricia
Caroline is such an inspiration to me. <3
She inspires me as well. Thank you so much for reading!
Blessings,
Patricia
So beautifully written. Motherhood is the journey to becoming a mother as well. Caroline thank you for sharing your journey with us. As woman we often forget that just because someone has children doesn’t mean it came easily to them.
We never know what path may have been traveled on the road to motherhood. Thanks so much for reading her story!
Blessings,
Patricia
Thank you so much friend. It’s an honor to be a part of this series, especially coming from a different perspective.
Thank YOU for sharing your heart with us!!
The waiting and surrendering is the hardest part. Sending her hugs and prayers – she is going to make a beautiful mama!
Yes, she is!!! I can’t wait for that time to come for her!
Blessings,
Patricia
Beautiful and inspiring!
She absolutely is!
Blessings,
Patricia
So true….we struggled for many years with infertility and it is SO tough to just surrender control and leave it in God’s hands not knowing the future.
Trusting in God’s timing is one of the hardest things to do!
Thanks for reading her story!
Blessings,
Patricia
I cannot even imagine what waiting so long must be like. You are an incredibly strong woman and are an inspiration of faith!
Thank you for sharing your journey!
Caroline is a remarkable woman!!
Blessings,
Patricia
I have known many couples who have prayed for children and after so so many years of trying, the Lord blessed them with children (sometimes more than one!). I have known others that waited and prayed for years that they would be blessed with a child via adoption and God answered their prayers. Motherhood looks different for every woman just as God’s plan is different for everyone one. He is good!
He is good indeed!!!
Blessings,
Patricia
Caroling is absolutely amazing. Her story reminds me of Abraham and Sarah. I love her devotion to our Lord & Saviour. I know without a doubt she will be a mom, because our God answers our prayers on HIS time. And when Caroline and her sweet husband become parents they will love that child unconditionally !
Yes, Heydy, yes!!! I can’t wait to celebrate with them on that glorious day!!!
Blessings to you,
Patricia
I hate that I’m just now getting around to reading this, but regardless, I’m so glad I thought about it and hopped on now. Caroline, this is beautiful and raw, as I expected it to me. You inspire me with your steadfast love and faith in our Lord. Love ya girl!!!
Caroline is amazing in so many ways!! Thanks for reading Chels!!
Blessings,
Patricia