What does motherhood mean to me?
What it means to me is much different than what I thought it would mean when I got married 6 years ago.
You meet the love of your life, you get married and then you have kids, right?
For 1 in 8 couples, it doesn’t work that way.
You see, motherhood is different for me because, right now, I am not yet a mom.
Instead I am a mom in the making.
5 years ago doctors told us we would never have kids. 5 years ago we decided to put all of our hope, trust and faith in God. 5 years ago we decided to stand on the Word of God and trust that He would expand the household of our family.
It’s been 5 years of not 1 positive pregnancy test, but 5 years of contending, believing, declaring, praying and trusting that God would make my husband and I parents.
Motherhood is something I have dreamed of since a little girl. But for now, since it hasn’t happened yet, it’s something I get to celebrate with others as I wait for it for myself.
Motherhood is something I think about all the time.
As I continue to take steps of faith and buy baby clothes, get the nursery ready and pray over our babies who haven’t even been conceived, it’s so much more to to me than a title.
Motherhood is a promise.
God has spoken to us we would have kids, but that doesn’t mean it happens so easy.
Motherhood is a journey.
It’s believing and contending even though nothing in our situation has changed.
Motherhood is a gift.
Never, ever, would I have known how much of a gift and a blessing it is had I become a mother when I wanted.
Motherhood looks different for everyone, but for so many women all across the globe, motherhood is something that is still just a dream. It’s something that 1 in 8 people, like myself, have to wait a very long time for. Some do shots every day, fly across country to see doctors, spend tens of thousands of dollars, yet are still overwhelmed with a lot of pain, heartache and loss.
Motherhood for me isn’t becoming a mom when I had wanted or desired, but it’s still choosing to surrender my plans to the Lord while remaining steadfast in pursuing him. It’s believing that nothing is impossible with God and that in God’s perfect timing I will become a mom if I don’t give up in waiting.