What Motherhood Means To…Nicole

What does motherhood mean to me?

Motherhood is one of the greatest gifts. I know this may seem like a Hallmark answer, but this is the very first word that comes to my mind. Becoming a parent is one of life’s richest blessings.

My husband and I married at the young age of 21 and 22, but we never once questioned if we were too young or if we should be tying the knot. This is not exactly how I felt about motherhood in the beginning. While some little girls fantasize about becoming a mother one day, I was aspiring to be a professional ballerina or a graphic designer instead.

Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower
Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower

Well, my ballet career ended a bit earlier than I expected and I felt like God had other plans for me. After about 8 years of marriage I started to wonder if I was suppose to be a mother. Kevin and I started to talk about it more and more and then we began praying for God’s will.

Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower
Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower

We both drew closer to each other and closer to God during this time and it was a wonderful feeling. However, I was faced with a lot of fear about the idea of becoming a mom! I was scared and thought for sure I was not fit and would only instill harm. Honestly, I was worried I wasn’t good enough to be a mom.

As soon as I was faced with this I knew I was wrong because then it would be like saying I didn’t need God and that He wasn’t enough.

So I began to pray about this and all the fears that surrounded it, and it was then that God answered. Remember my husband and I had been married 8 years and we were still uncertain if we could even have children. I mean you don’t know until it happens right? Well it happened quickly, not even a month or two into praying about it did we find out we were pregnant for the first time!

Fast forward a bit now and we are the proud parents of two little girls and another girl on the way! Once I was uncertain of motherhood, now I am richly blessed with three little girls. Sure I am not perfect like I thought I needed to be, but I know I was designed to be my daughters’ mom. I am honored to be a mother and I know I have been given a great responsibility.

Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower
Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower

Motherhood is not about being perfect it is simply unachievable. Since being a mom I have learned so much more about myself along with the good, the bad and the ugly. I need my Savior all the time because motherhood is the hardest job in the world! My hope and my prayer is to raise my girls to be godly women, women of grace and disciple’s of Christ.

Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower
Photo Courtesy of Nicole Flower

xo, Nicole

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Hi, I’m Nicole! I’ve been married fifteen years to the love of my life, a mama to two little girls and another due soon. I am officially a “girl mom”! Please pray for me! My hubby and I run a business by day and by night I enjoy writing on my blog over at lilflowermama.com Fun fact about me: I LOVE baseball and am a loyal NY Mets fan. Let’s connect on Facebook and Instagram!

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22 thoughts on “What Motherhood Means To…Nicole

  1. “I need my Savior all the time because motherhood is the hardest job in the world! My hope and my prayer is to raise my girls to be godly women, women of grace and disciple’s of Christ.” THIS! it is the hardest job and I have the same hopes and prayers. thanks for sharing her story!

  2. Congratulations on your pregnancy! What a great blessing to be blessed with three children! I love Nicole’s story. It inspires me to keep trusting in God and not lose faith.

  3. This is so good! I never dreamed of being a mom and didn’t think I would ever have kids until shortly before I got pregnant, but I could not be more happy and am so thankful that God knows better than we do!

  4. Yes!! Motherhood is the hardest job in the world!! I loved this post. I love how it highlighted how much we need the Lord, no matter what our circumstances are. xx

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