“LORD, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered— how fleeting my life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath.”
We are merely moving shadows, and all our busy rushing ends in nothing. We heap up wealth, not knowing who will spend it. And so, Lord, where do I put my hope? My only hope is in you.”
Psalms 39:4-7 NLT
I thought I’d have so much to say. Some form of poignant words filled with deep reflection and revelation. The truth is, I’m at a loss. Not out of desperation and certainly not out of despair, but out of an aching heart.
On Monday night I was sitting in a hotel room, contemplating dinner options and if I’d take a dip in the pool. Hoping that day 2 of the conference would come with better breakfast options, and wondering what my husband planned to do with girls while I was in session. Then I received that call everyone dreads, and within moments I was packing for our hour and a half drive home.
Even as I sat in the hospital room, holding her lifeless hand as my husband prayed, it didn’t seem real. It still doesn’t, but it is.
My Auntie Tina has left this temporary dwelling place, to join the Father in our permanent home. At just 46 years old it all seems too soon, but against the backdrop of eternity our lives here on earth are but a fleeting moment.
I will never forget the tears that poured from her eyes when we presented her with her own Bible a couple Christmases ago, knowing that her desire was to forge a more intimate relationship with the Lord. Her salvation assures me that we’ll meet again, and brings more comfort than I could ever put into words.
I’m sure you and my dad are doing some epic party planning in heaven, but I wasn’t ready to say goodbye. I’m still not, so I’ll say see you later and thank you. Thank you for the good times and the love. Thank you, Auntie, for all the wonderful, wonderful things you added to my life. 💗
Prayers for my family during this difficult time would be appreciated!